I'll Get There

Eventually I'll remember to blog every day (or at least every other day) but until then the random postings will have to do.

Where to start…and fair warning that this is going to be a complaining post…

People. I think that people have gotten progressively ruder and more self-centered as time goes on. Gone are the days when someone asks you how you are and then actually waits to hear the answer. I feel like the past few times someone has asked me how I am, by the time I'm ready to answer their back is already facing me and they are on to the next person. Why even bother to ask at that point? Part of me would like to say something absurd as the answer like "Mary had a little lamb" or "The sky is yellow" and see if anyone noticed. My guess is no.

Another issue is that people are down right rude now a days. I'm so tired of people saying "Oh I'm not rude, I'm sarcastic." Um no, you're rude. Being sarcastic doesn't mean you attack someone verbally or insult them and then just say, I'm being sarcastic. That isn't sarcasm, that's rudeness. There is a difference. If someone doesn't "get" your sarcasm, that is probably because you're not being sarcastic. Don't tell me that I don't understand "your" sarcasm because I'm offended with what you said. The reason I don't get your sarcasm is because you aren't being sarcastic. Or if you say something and then realize it offended me and you try to save it and take back the statement by saying you're being sarcastic, it's not going to work. We both know you're lying and you aren't fooling anyone. Let's move on.

With facebook and twitter people have forgotten how to interact with people face to face. Everyone is so used to having a cellphone or a computer between them and an actual person, that they feel like they can say anything. We teach kids in school to be nice to one another, and to not say everything that you think out loud. I've realized though that as adults that seems to go out the window. I'm all for being able to say what you want, but there has to be some type of common courtesy. When I was teaching, the kids used to say something hurtful and then after it say "no offense." Every time I would tell them that if you have to say "no offense" at the end or at the beginning of a statement, don't say it! It is clearly not nice and chances are it is going to hurt someone. Now adults are doing that too?!? Disappointing. We need to go back to the saying, if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all. Seriously, don't.

Sooooo why did I write this post? Here's the problem, all this has taken a toll on me and I realize it more and more every day. It sucks. I hate it. I wish it didn't effect me, but it does. I've become jaded about people. I've built huge walls (imagine hoover dam size walls). I act like peoples words don't bother me. I act tough. And then eventually, I crumble into pieces by myself. Then the next day I have to put myself together and act like I'm fine. It's exhausting. Truly exhausting. We are trying to stop bullying in schools, only to have adult bullies now. It needs to stop.

So keep your rude "sarcastic" thoughts to yourself and grow up. Be kind to one another and not hurtful. We are all just trying to survive in this world, and it is hard enough without someone trying to bring you down the entire time.

Lets Try This Again, Shall We?

When I first started this blog I had good intentions to become one of those girls who loves to blog and has a huge following on her blog. Clearly though, that did not happen. 

However, I'm willing to try it again. And you know what? Even if my blog does not become popular, and even if it never has a single follower, I'm going to continue doing it...for me. 

I think that at first I had the wrong approach to blogging and that is why it didn't work. I was writing for other people. I was writing to entertain. I was not writing for myself. But realistically isn't that who a blog is for….yourself. I'm going to talk about what I want, when I want and how I want. It's going to be about random things that happen in my life, or just random things I'm thinking about on that day. If it happens to entertain people, then that is just an added bonus my blogger friends. 

So on to the topic for tonight: Relaxation

Growing up I was fascinated by thunderstorms. I loved watching the lightning from a window in my parents house or from the backseat in a car. I found it incredible that something so powerful can come from those fluffy clouds in the sky. And even though I am not incredibly religious and still question a lot of things based around religion, there is a part of me that still questions whether the thunder and lightning is Gods way of saying he is angry. There is truly nothing like a good thunderstorm to make you realize how small a part you play on Earth and even in the universe (deep thoughts, I know). Growing up I wanted to be a meteorologist. I was constantly tracking storms and watching weather shows on television. But this love for thunderstorms disappeared some time during college for some reason and all of a sudden I became terrified of them. I'd cling on to the guy I was dating and be almost brought to tears from lightning. I don't know what changed and I don't remember any specific incident that would cause such a fear, but it was disappointing. 

Recently, though, I've realized that that fear is disappearing. I'm finding myself glued to the window again watching the storms. Like tonight. The lightning I've seen tonight is some of the most incredible and beautiful stuff I've ever seen. Now you may be asking why I said the topic was relaxation and how in the world does this relate. I'll tell you. There is something weirdly calming about watching a storm and the lightning. It's almost like a movie you get to watch and there is no plot that you have to follow or pay attention to. You just get to take in the sights and sounds. After a stressful day today, I was so happy to hear the distant roar of thunder tonight. It's relaxing. It's simple. It's natures idea of a movie. So next time there's a storm coming here is my suggestion: Pull up the blinds. Pull up a chair. Pour a glass of wine. And watch the show. And if you don't like complete silence put on some relaxing music (my suggestion: A Storm Is Going To Come by Piers Faccini) 

Stay dry and relax :-)